August 2010
1 post
Seq. 14
INT.Lumang bahay, malapit sa Marikina river.
BABAE: Nu’ng makiusap akong umalis ka sa buhay ko, ang ibig kong sabihin ay mawala ka sa lahat ng aspeto. Sa lahat.
Yuyuko. Mahuhulog at gugulong ang kausap na garapon ng buhay, na ilang oras lamang ang nakalipas ay pumipintig sa loob ng kanyang katawan.
December 2009
22 posts
Ang Oportunidad, Ang Oportunista, At Ang Kumadrona
Kalansing, kalansing
Sa kabilang dingding
‘Di wari ang nangyayari
Sa sariling nabingi
Suklob ng takot at panganib
Anuman ang kahinatnan
Iatras o ituloy man
Saksing langit ang kalaban
Walang salitang mabibitawan
Kimkimin ang galit sa katawan
Dal’hin hanggang huli
Ang sakit na kawili-wili
Kalansing, kalansing
Sa kabilang dingding
Pulang agos ng dagat
‘Di pinansin ang...
Irony
I’ve learned awful things, yet I found myself loving her more.
Love equals stupidity. Gah.
“I’m sick and tired of all these games, these games you try to feed me, but...”
– Queen Paranoia, Slapshock
Blinded
There are certain things that make a man weak. These things hinder him to see the real things.
It was really good to be able to see again. Things are still a bit blurry, but somehow a bigger picture was painted.
The truth was in front of me all along.
It’s sad, nay painful, but everyone’s thoughts about it were true. Yes, even the closest ones. And I mean everyone.
(If it’s...
“History will absolve me.”
– Fidel Castro
Dear Santa
Please let me sleep this Christmas.
Or bring her back.
Even in my dreams. Or not.
Love,
Bugoy
To The One Who Taught Me How To Jump To My Song
No one sings like you do. Wish I could go back to the time when we were all alone and singing like there’s no tomorrow. Just the two of us.
Damn.
Sana’y matapos na, ‘di makapag-umpisa.:-|
“I make films with myself as the primary audience.”
– Khavn dela Cruz
This is not a link to Khavn's site. →
When Will It End?
I still see her in my dreams. F*ck!
September 2009
1 post
“Philippine cinema has given much to me, and one must pay back one’s debts.”
– Alexis Tioseco, 1981-2009
July 2009
1 post
Phase
You can be so bitchy. I can be so angsty. But I shall love you more.
May 2009
1 post
Learnings
I used to think that love could be learned, but with no “L”, it has to be earned.:(
April 2009
18 posts
The Dreamer
I love hearing her dreams. They are so vivid. I feel like I’m there whenever she’s narrating them. And they are wild. And crazy. It just shows how crazy her inner self is.
And I so love that.
Lino Brocka, National Artist for Film,... →
First Shot
When I’m already old, please pardon me for telling you that the first shot of the Filipino-American war happened on this bridge. I may not hear you yell at me, that I’ve been repeatedly saying that for the last 50 years, I could be already deaf. I may not see you make face because I could be blind at that time.
Please forgive me. I just ask to hold my hands and lean your head towards...
“You are responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for...”
– Antoine de Saint Exupéry
Love+Art
Maybe a number of my fans (say 2?) are wondering why this tumblelog of mine is overflowing with cheesiness. This is because this is the way I want it to be. Everyday accounts of my life with her and art.
My journey. Our journey. Through art.
And whatever happens, these are the things that I will never regret, the things that I will read when I grow old. The things that my grandchildren will read...
“We don’t see things as they are. We see them as we are.”
– Anais Nin
Tic Toc, Tic Toc
I miss her.
Now I’m frowning.
The day suddenly ended.
“A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.”
– Phyllis Diller
Mona Lisa's Hidden Smile
She frowns without any reason. Maybe there’s one, but she wouldn’t tell me. She gets annoyed of me, yet I did nothing but stare at her. Maybe it’s my presence, my mere presence. I can get pretty annoying sometimes, actually, most of the time. Her mood swings can prove it. But still, I continue to love her more and more. These quirks are the things that made me fall for her. It...
Dark Saturday
An uneventful morning, I spent time just thinking and thinking and thinking. Of what? Of nothing. When I got tired, I went to Bonifacio High Street and sat there. I just watched people. Nakakainip. Nakakabato. Nag-iisip ng kung anu-ano. Wala pang yosi.
So this is what Black Saturday is all about.
“It is not true that people stop pursuing dreams because they grow old, they grow...”
– Gabriel García Márquez
Adhemas Batista sells colors. →
The First
I shall call you your name, because I believe that it’s a beautiful name. It sounds like a boy’s name, but hell, for me it’s so beautiful. It suits your smile. It suits your personality. It’s so you. It’s beautiful. I shall not call you other names. Your name, for me, is enough.
You’re enough. And I will never ask for more.
Maleldo, Cutud
I had a great day looking for a small town named Cutud in San Fernando, Pampanga. It was tiring, but fun. Naabutan namin ‘yung huling nagpapako sa krus around 3 p.m. Nandu’n ako sa harap nu’ng pinapako s’ya. It felt weird, though.
Yes, it was a really Good Friday. I was with her.
“I want people to feel commotion beneath the surface of my pictures.”
– Yoshitomo Nara
“What luck for rulers that men do not think.”
– Adolf Hitler